So I had a bit of a psychotic moment this morning. Or so it felt. Felt a bit like Glenn here in Fatal Attraction when all was said and done. Hypothetically speaking, of course. I sometimes (not so nicely) describe myself as slightly stupid and mildy insane. I'm neither. I'm actually rather smart and pretty well grounded. But what I am is super sensitive. Always have been. Always will be. It is my most annoying character trait (in my humble opinion) and the part of myself I like the least. So, after having a mild nervous breakdown this morning after what basically boiled down to a clerical error made by a friend...I have been judged.By the man.
See, he has to deal with me (in real life) when this happens. He is here when all the little pieces come raining down like confetti in a parade from Hell. He is very wise, this man. He says: You are spreading yourself too thin. Parts of you are see through. You need to just...turn it off.
Turn it off means the obsessing and worrying and self criticism I am so very, very good at. It is my best skill lately! Which sucks.
I am being whisked away to the big brown sofa for a few days. Not necessarily for "the sex porn" (anyone see that D.C. episode of No Reservations?) but for some down time. Veg out, TV, snacks, cuddling, kissing, laughing, doing fucking nothing time. So the see through parts of me can become opaque again.
If you get hungry while I'm gone, grab some grub. The feast is still going strong:
Saturday, January 31—Vegetarian EntréeHost: Donna George Storey
Monday, February 2—SaladHost: Emerald
Tuesday, February 3—DessertHost: Sommer Marsden
Wednesday, February 4—Petit Fours and TrufflesHost: Nikki Magennis
XOXO
Sommer
p.s. in the mood for some meat? (Not rabbit) Go to Aphrodite's Table. The food's great, there's a huge mound of nekkid people and KM's got the grill going. Sorry. I drank the wine...it was a rough morning, did I mention?
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Oh, god, I remember seeing this movie from the front row on a first date. I think the film turned my date off women forever.
Should we make up a group? Sensitive People Unite? (Hmmm. I think that's "spew.")
Good luck becoming opaque again. I'm all for diaphanous, except in my friends.
XXX,
Alison
Awww... enjoy the much-deserved break. It's good to have someone telling you enough is enough when you can't see the forest for the trees.
I'l join the Sensitive People Unite group. I always wear my heart on my sleeve, but some days... wheeee... I feel like I've been turned inside out and all vital organs are subject to sharp objects. Sucks.
My name is Heidi, and I'm an obsessive worrier, self-criticiser, and all around brooder.
Where do I sign up for the group? Is there free coffee?
I think you have to pay for the coffee but the porn is free.
XXX,
AT
I worry about worrying and obsess about obsessing - does that count and can tear myself down with the best of them (according to my husband) - does that count? Am I quallified? Do I have to pass some test? What if I'm not crazy enough?
Seriously, being whisked away for some down time sounds so reasonable. Enjoy. See you on Tuesday for dessert!
and can I spell correctly? no
oh, you've all made me feel so much better. thank you. am not alone in my insanity. coffee is free, pron is free, I do charge to pet the red wiener. dog! stop looking at me like that ;)
xoxo
s
p.s. my word is waxicuot...am i the only one who automatically thought of a Brazilian?
;)
Is it too late to join?
Oh, look you were hidden, ER! I just found this in my overflowing yahoo account!
Of coarse it is not too late. Obessessing et al is a 24/7 gig! ;)
xoxo
s
I wasn't hidden. I only left this yesterday. I was too busy worrying and obsessing to get here earlier. Oh, goody! A club that's open all hours! Thank you!
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